Trust is the foundation of Love

Somehow, I feel better now.

Even though things were not very much clear, I am enlightened. I have realized that we are both in a state of confusion and in a state of wanting to find ourselves and reflect on ourselves. I think we really need a little bit of time and space to grow. We must reflect on ourselves so that we may become stronger and better persons. After we fix ourselves, only then can we fix whatever is between us.

I reminded myself that trust is the foundation of love. When I say trust, it doesn't necessarily include promises. Sometimes, they say that promises are just meant to be broken. I think it is alright if we didn't actually promise when we were in a state of confusion because its hard to make a promise when you are not sure if you can do it. So I'd just say that I'd trust him and I'd trust myself that everything will be okay. And I also trust him and myself that the feeling is still there. I can feel it. However, sometimes, before we attend to our feelings to other people we must first attend to ourselves. I have accepted this now, and I am thanking him for giving me also time to grow and time for myself and the opportunity to be stronger. We can fix ourselves and after we had our space and time, when the right time comes, the right thing happens. Maybe we'll be back again. :)

Lastly, I trust Him. I have prayed and prayed. I have thanked him for giving me a wonderful friend and I trust him that everything will be alright between us. I think He has plans for me, or for us. It may be us being stronger and better people, or maybe He really gave us time to reflect and to repent on ourselves. You know, when everything seems to be going wrong or crazy, I just remember that.. all these things happen for a reason.. Maybe all these things that seem to be wrong happen to lead you to the right way... And how can you hold on to that belief? All you have to do is trust. Trust in God and trust in Love. :)

♥♥♥

lovelovelove, eLise.

♥♥♥

i'm not a quitter, i just have my priorities.

marami ang nagtatanong sa akin, bakit ako nagquit ng COCC?

well actually, I'm not a quitter. I just have my priorities. :)

One great thing that I learned from COCC is not the physical training, but making the right decision. Knowing your values, your priorities, what you want, what is right, when to stop.. Listening to your heart.

Two reasons why I joined COCC is for leadership skills and discipline. Well, okay na ang kamag-aral officer, at nagagamit ko naman ang leadership skills ko. Tsaka, good leadership skill na rin ang pagdedecide ng tama at ayon sa sarili mo... Ayun. Tsaka, discipline, eh kasi hindi na naman ako nadidisplina kung nakakatulog na ako sa klase at di na nakakagawa ng homeworks diba. :)

STRESS. pagod na pagod ako since last last week. Yung LC, napaka-haggard namin noon. pagod na pagod, walang tulog. AT.. sabay pa ang COCC noon sa akin. kaya naman nababaliw na talaga ako. at after ng LC, sabog pa rin ako. tipong bawat klase HINDI KO NA ALAM... hindi ko na maintindihan.

ACADS. ayun. eto kasi talaga ang priority ko.. ACADEMICS. ayokong magsuffer ito, well, nung nagsimula ako alam kong maapektuhan to, pero di ko naman inakalang ganoon kalaki ang impact sa akin.. siguro shocked.. pero..

kahit na kayanin ko ito hanggang sa dulo, after six months.. ayaw kong sa dulo, makikita ko na lang na ang daming nag suffer, ang daming nai-sacrifice.. sa academics, etc. hindi naman okay na sa akin yun...

ngayon pa lang nakita ko na na 89 ako sa algeb.. ayoko nang palalain pa yun.. nadedepress na nga ako dun palang eh.. isa pa pala, DEPRESSION. nadedepress ako, I feel that this is not the right thing.. That the right thing is to quit.. It's what my heart says anyway.

Ano bang benefits ng cocc? is it worth it? siguro kung hindi ko priority ang acads, yes.. pero magsasalungat kasi sya sa values ko kaya ayun..

From the start nag-aalangan ako, at least I tried. Now I learned, what is the right thing for me. :)

Thank you very much. I think that i'm happier now.

Just Listen To Your Heart...
and listen to your soul.. :P

marami pa akong dapat isulat pero nakakainis na talaga ang kapatid ko kaya eto na, tatapusin ko muna. :)

♥♥♥
lovelovelove,
eLise.

♥♥♥

These ACTS.

These acts.
These kind of acts SUCK.

oh again, pardon me with my language. ♥
but do you know, how many strikes we need to LEARN?

strike one:
kennings (talented troublemakers, losers, xerox machines, cheaters, stupid, intellect wasters)

after the long speech, I hear someone say.. "Tara na mga losers, pabayaan nyo na yun,"

ganito ba talaga tayo, at pinaninindigan nalang natin ba ito? hindi ba tayo dapat MAGBAGO? Tanggapin natin na sinulat natin iyon, pero dapat magbago tayo at gumawa ng paraan. Eh hindi eh, tinutuloy lang natin, WALA TAYONG PAKIALAM. Hindi naman tayo ganun eh, so magiging passive nalang tayo...?

Being passive makes us a part of them.
If were just going to let it pass, then we're not any different.


strike two:
ID vandalism, tampering.
so far, ngayon lang raw ito nangyari. An ID, is an identification card, part of the records, so bakit natin ipepeke? Bakit natin babaguhin, sariling records natin ang pinepeke natin. Pinapahiya ang school natin,..

strike three:

ang pangbubully ng student teacher.

Porket student teacher ba ay may karapatan na tayo mangbully na parang akala natin ay kung sino na tayo para gawin ito? Ano na ba talaga tayo ngayon?

"Umupo ka na" -- ST. "Umupo ka na rin Maam!!" -- estudyante.

Sabihin na nating ayaw natin sa mga ST, pero wala tayong karapatan para gawin to, napaka-WALANG MODO.

"Bumebenta naman eh.."

sabi nga naman ng iba, EH MASAYA NAMAN EH.

pero, HINDI TAMA!

Hindi porket masaya, kahit hindi tama ay ginagawa na.

Hindi porket ginagawa ng lahat, gagawin mo na rin.

Siguro dapat hindi na rin tayo nakikitawa sa ganitong mga bagay. Kita mo nang mali, tatawa ka pa. Edi lumala pa. Ganun, diba?

Oo, hindi natin mababago ang mga tao basta basta. Pero at least, pigilan natin sila at wag na tayong makisama.

other strikes:

VANDALISM.

kitang kita naman kung sino ang madalas magvandal, kung sino ang nagvavandal, at least, kung sinong batch.. lahat na ata ng mga pangalan natin ay nasa mga upuan na. at PROUD ba tayo dun? hindi ba manlang tayo NAHIHIYA?

CHEATING.

alam na alam ng ating mga teachers na talamak ang cheating. mula sa homework seatwork, hanggang sa test at PERIODIC TEST.

Kung ako lang ang tatanungin,

Mas mabuti nang bumagsak kaysa pumasa dahil ako'y nandaya.

Eh siyempre may mamimilit sa atin, "PAKOPYA!" matuto tayong tumanggi, turuan nalang natin sila.. kaysa mabuhay silang pala-asa. Kasi, hindi naman natin sila natutulungan sa pagpapakopya sa kanila. Masama pa ang dulot nito sa kanila.

Hindi natin basta basta mababago ang mga tao.

Pero, simulan natin sa ating mga sarili.. At, wag nating hayaan ang isang bagay na mali.

Nakita mo nang mali, pigilan mo na agad.

Being passive makes us a part of them. ♥

♥♥♥
lovelovelove,
eLise.

♥♥♥