Trust is the foundation of Love

Somehow, I feel better now.

Even though things were not very much clear, I am enlightened. I have realized that we are both in a state of confusion and in a state of wanting to find ourselves and reflect on ourselves. I think we really need a little bit of time and space to grow. We must reflect on ourselves so that we may become stronger and better persons. After we fix ourselves, only then can we fix whatever is between us.

I reminded myself that trust is the foundation of love. When I say trust, it doesn't necessarily include promises. Sometimes, they say that promises are just meant to be broken. I think it is alright if we didn't actually promise when we were in a state of confusion because its hard to make a promise when you are not sure if you can do it. So I'd just say that I'd trust him and I'd trust myself that everything will be okay. And I also trust him and myself that the feeling is still there. I can feel it. However, sometimes, before we attend to our feelings to other people we must first attend to ourselves. I have accepted this now, and I am thanking him for giving me also time to grow and time for myself and the opportunity to be stronger. We can fix ourselves and after we had our space and time, when the right time comes, the right thing happens. Maybe we'll be back again. :)

Lastly, I trust Him. I have prayed and prayed. I have thanked him for giving me a wonderful friend and I trust him that everything will be alright between us. I think He has plans for me, or for us. It may be us being stronger and better people, or maybe He really gave us time to reflect and to repent on ourselves. You know, when everything seems to be going wrong or crazy, I just remember that.. all these things happen for a reason.. Maybe all these things that seem to be wrong happen to lead you to the right way... And how can you hold on to that belief? All you have to do is trust. Trust in God and trust in Love. :)

♥♥♥

lovelovelove, eLise.

♥♥♥

isang araw.

nanaginip ulit ako.
ngayon ang panaginip ko ay:
bumalik ako sa COCC. for a second. just a second. then i realized na hindi pala dapat. whaat. yuck naman elise. ang weird mo talaga elise. haha. kasi daw sabi dun sa panaginip ko, I have long decided kung ano ba talaga. so stop na elise. please. :) di naman ako weak eh. haha.

KA:
kung narito man kayo o kung wala man kayo, well. anyway. we're very proud to tell you that the KA room is now user-friendly. haha. nilinis na namin ni Jona kanina. at btw, di ba halatang.. nakakamiss na lang talaga. nakita niyo naman ang background ko sa friendster? panalo eh. wahaha. aayusin ko iyon next week, or next next.. or something.

JONA.
haha. kamusta naman ang adventure natin kanina? napasabay ka lang tapos napunta tayong SM north, nailibre kitang Yoshinoya. Ang saya Jona! waha. tapos nagliwaliw tayo sa SM, medyo nagshopping ako. ikaw, kamusta ang shopping experience mo? haha. sa SM manila? :) Ewan ko. pero ang saya lang talaga.

GRADES.
. . .
isang malaking ". . ."
hindi ko alam.
ayoko magsulat tungkol dito sa grades.
ayun lang.

kasi frustrating eh. card ko ba to? tsk.
ayun. magsasalita pa ba ako? well.

anyway.

project sa social at evaluation.
well. evaluation over the project.
not much interested at di kasi ako naaliw sa topic.
at ayokong mag-isip ng lalim. haha.

workaholic.
workaholic daw ako. na. restless ako. yes.
stressed ako. maybe yes. maybe no. there are other more people out there more stressed than me. I belong in a different social clique daw. daw. whaat. alien ba ako? hindi. hindi ako alien.

lovelife.
EXCUSE ME?! haha. wala akong ganito eh.
sino nagsingit ng salitang iyan dyan?
well, kasi si AJ, biglang nagtatanong.
excuse me ah. wala ako niyan. che. :x

i feel so far away,
sometimes.

♥♥♥

lovelovelove,
eLise.

♥♥♥

cocc.

YES or NO?
makakaya ba? gusto ko ba?

Haha.
1) time-consumption.
-- kaya ko bang gugulin ang oras ko para dito? okay lang ba sa aking mawala ang oras ko??

2) grades..
-- oo bababa ang grades ko.. okay lang ba..?

3) makakayanan ko bang hindi tumawa?
-- masayahin akong tao. kaya ko bang hindi ngumiti?
napaka-good mood ko na lagi eh. napakasaya ko na..

4) is it worth it?
-- is it worth it...

5) kaya ko ba?
-- ang paghihirap? kaya ko ba??

6) eh gusto ko maging officer eh..
-- eh ano naman kung hindi ako maging officer?

7) sayang pag di ko sinubukan.
-- nag orientation na ko. dignity elise. dignity.

8) it's a training.
-- can i not train myself in my own way?
is the training worth it??

9) discipline.
-- yeah. it's nice discipline.. haha.

10) Kamag-Aral..
-- syempre..

ang tanong... am I willing to take the risk? ano ba talaga ang gusto ko? eto ba talaga? kakayanin ko ba?

at ano naman ang mawawala kung subukan ko?

bottomline...
NOTHING.

♥♥♥
lovelovelove,
eLise.

♥♥♥

happy birthday♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SA AKIN.
sa akin, kay maam diane, kay rafael rofiles at kay Carlo Atela.♥

salamat sa lahat ng bumati sa akin kahapon. ♥
sa TEXT, sa YM, sa FRIENDSTER, sa MULTIPLY, sa BLOG, sa SCHOOL. :)
hehehe.

feeling ko binati ako ng lahat ng tao sa school.
feeling ko lang. hehe. :p ewan ko, parang ang daming bumati sa school..

salamat sa nagtext.
Mik, Karina, Mara, Daryll, Kenneth, Leanne, Ate Kling, Danjo, Jerwin, Mia, Ate Tintin, Bianca Casela, Rafael Rofiles, Mara DC, Ate Lou, Ate Lesley, Ate Nadine, Maam Diane, Mark, Hector.

sa lahat ng nag comment sa FRIENDSTER:
Pauline, Meg, Sam
Sareena, Sarah, Ate Eds, Ate Aileen, Hasnia, Ate Mariz, Ate Krys, Cath, Nerisa, Cysteine, Rick, Danielle, Camille, Frances, Lesley, Nia, Maam Tina, Joyce.

sa MULTIPLY:
Nerisa, Gab Borjal.. ate Queenie

sa buong GOLD!!
kahit ang happy birthday niyo ay palakpak lang.. hehehe.

sa mga teachers:
Maam Rhea, Maam Vargas, Maam Diane, Sir Chris, Sir Mike, Maam Zandra

*hugs*

sa lahat ng K.A, ito yung handaan part. thank you sa birthday card.. ang sarap ng pizza noh?:)
Lulu, Nana, Dindin, Jojo, Makmak, Joyjoy, Ysys, Lili, Dean C, Yanyan, ate joyce..


sa mga cocc.. at nasa orientation.
Chad, Apple, Michelle, Seanne, Mia..
kuya Jimmy, Ate Lizbeth, David S, Ate Rosa..
etc etc. *ito yung nakakagulong part*

sa LAHAT ng BUMATI sa school!
ang dami niyo, di ko na maisulat lahat! :)
smile na lang. THANK YOU ALL. :)

sa bumili ng ice cream, Mia, Mara, Karina..
salamat kahit napaos ako..

MARAMING SALAMAT SAINYONG LAHAT.
THANK YOU..
VERY,
VERY
MUCH.
:)

i love you friends! :)

♥♥♥
lovelovelove,
eLise.

♥♥♥

head.

my head damn hurts..
my head aches..
my head is like... i don't know.

puro nalang social ahh. grabe na to.
buti nalang tapos ko na yung probsets.
reaction papers pa sa language subjs. engfil.

♥♥♥
lovelovelove,
eLise.

♥♥♥

july30, 08.

bakit ako nandito? para magbuhos ng sama ng loob ko? haay. salamat nalang kay Chad na napagbuhusan ng sama ng loob kahapon. Okay lang naman ang mga usapan namin EXCEPT boy talk. hindi kasi ako talaga lalaki kahit ganun man iyon.. salamat din kay michelle na kausap ko kanina.. na ayun positive din. si Luis din.. "SO MUCH!" nyaak. haha. kay daryll at allan, na nagyayabangan. FYI, di ako myabang. Si "emo", ambot sa emo! :D hahaha. Pau, Karina, Mara.. kaewanan niyo. ang ewan ewan ewan. natawa lang ako. si Celine, ang cute mo. Si isol, ang galing ng camera mo. Si kaniel, jek, gino, nakakatawa kayo.. sa lahat ng tao, nagpapasalamat ako sainyo... kahit onti lang nakakabasa nito.. :D

actually.
kaya ako nandito kasi nung isang araw at kanina at kahapon, ang weird lang talaga kasi ako ay medyo FRUSTRATED. ilang araw na toh! feeling ko kasi, being taken advantage of ako. pero BLAMED din ako. Which is NOT my fault. SO NOT my fault. lahat ng iyon. NO. :c kasi naman, i've wasted all time, efforts, just to get the reactions na...

"wala pa ring picture taking?"
"bukas nalang!!"
"si elise may kasalanan."

KAILAN KAYA ANG BUKAS?

HELL. this is what I get? this is it? THIS?
frustrated ako sa sarili ko. yes. yes.
pero PLEASE. kasalanan ko pa bang wala kayo dun, kailangan ko pa bang magwaste ng H2O sa eyes ko para lang mailabas ang sama ng loob ko kahapon?:c Hahaha.

TWO.
Wala akong crush at hindi malaki ang ulo ko. Oo medyo nayayabang ako, kasi katuwaan lang yun, para maging masaya.

HINDI AKO KINIKILIG!!! ngek naman oh,. di ako kinikilig. HINDI. haha. at walang nagkakacrush sa akin, anong mamigay, WALA noh. Haha. Lahat naman kalokohan eh. KALOKOHAN. xD ako, LOVE kind of person, NO WAY! :D

pero nakakatawa yun ah. natawa tuloy ako. xD

hehe. ang weird. irritation si RIZAL talaga. tapos ako ba talaga si Josephine Bracken? HINDI! HINDI!

:D

whatever elise.
GOGOGO. AJAJAJAJA. :D

cheering on myself.
malapit na birthday ko, regaluhan mo ko ha?:)

AUGUST FIFTEEN! :D

♥♥♥
lovelovelove,
eLise.

♥♥♥

happÿ anniversary karina! :)

first stop.
today is JULY 24, 2008.
And I say:
Happy Birthday KARINA!
JOKE!
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY! :)

See?
So, buti naman at hindi ako nasagasaan ng motor today, how about you, karina?:D hehe.

Hindi ako nasagasaan. Pero, feeling ko/namin, ay kinain ako ng someone. They eat people because they're transforming when they're in that room...

So haggard day. Sorry owten. Kasi, ganun talaga. At least nakagawa kayo gn filipino nyo. Maintindihan nyo naman yun.. Walang camera kasi may ginagawa kaming importante para kaninang hapon na...._________ :c

So it's a hell of a week. I dare say.

One thing I hope, sa mga sabik nang magclass picture at etc, wag nyo kami/ako sisihin, I hope someone appreciates our efforts... Well I think naman meron.

By the way, inspired ako sa flattering words ni Celine kahapon.
"all around", yan ang aking inspirasyon sa tiring week na toh.

Salamat aking mga kaibigan.♥

♥♥♥
lovelovelove,
eLise.

♥♥♥

i hate rumors.

one thing about being happy, not caring about what others think, and having something called "lovelife", whatever and whatsoever... is rumors. there ARE many rumors..

the sad thing is, I'm the last one to know. I think.

Yes, I said that I don't care about what others think. But, you know, this really affects how people see me. How I deal with others.. How I.....

Sumasaya na buhay ko. Now I'm not sure what's going on..

I hate it when all things are unclear and you hear about rumors going on. I hate it! I hate it!

A girl told me she's sorry.. But I don't know why.. If she did something behind my back or.. whatever. The first thing that came to mind was that I don't even know who my true friends are, whom I should trust.. But then, thanks na lang sa kanya dahil naging tapat sya sa pagsososorry. Pero hindi ko pa rin alam eh.

Okay na rin siguro yun kahit na nasira na gabi ko. Nasira na araw ko.

How am I? DEFINITELY NOT OKAY.

Grabe, nakakalungkot naman. Yung My Girl pa. haha. buwisit na araw to oh.

♥♥♥
lovelovelove,
eLise.
♥♥♥

the camera. :c

the sadness of losing that camera.

oh my god. I miss that damn freaking camera. uhh. say, what's up with my words? Hahaha. How the hell would I know..

I don't use that camera everyday, but it's like it's been a long week.. weekend.. since that freaking CANON A700 got lost. I am NOT the one to blame, I took care of that camera till the last minute. Gosh I'm so dramatic. Hahaha.

I used it monday.. gave it to my mom after... And she never put it back... It was lost.. We think soo..

God grant me a new camera, please..
I'm so lonely without that camera...

I can't capture moments, sceneries... everything..
my life's been...... hahaha

♥♥♥
eLise.

the hair ♥

okay, so what's with the hair?

finally!
after so many years.. may maisusulat na ako sa blog ko.

mang iintriga lang naman ako eh.. tingin nyo, what's with the hair?:] hahaha. ano nanaman kayang kalokohan ang pinagagagawa ko? nyahahaha. ♥

oo na, vain na kung vain. pero ang sayang. sana may makakita nito dahil napaka-temporary nito. hahahahaha. ♥ grabe ah. wow ah.

alam nyo dapat sa time na to, ako ay.. gumagawa na ng project.. pero..hehehe. vain eh. sorry mara isa & groupmates....

hehehe.look look.
Ang cute noh?:D JOKE.

multiply css not working.

uhhh.

it's not working!!

i'be been working on my theme yesterday but I cannot install it.

Yan tuloy, background nalang muna.

Asaaar. kaasar talaga.

naman oh.

sana maayos na yan ng multiply..

at yung blog ko ang weird ng theme.

this is SO NOT ME.

that's what I think.

what have I eaten?!?!

(chicken, spaghetti, palabok, fruit salad, cake, puto, iced tea,)
(spareribs, siomai, rice, pansit,)


:]

whatever ever.

Hello.

Why is it that...
I think I have nothing to put here today??

All these time I've been editing them all..
And I have got nothing to say.

I have been busy with.....
school work... KA work,.. whatever ever ever.

And there is nothing in my mind right now.
I'll get back to you when I edit some new photos and when I upload them..

I'll make a blog out of them..XD

haha.

This page is soo BORING. :D

the beloved.

my cousins

my dear friends.

My dear friends,

I totally miss you all.
But I really don't want to be dramatic, I just want to spend every moment happily..
Para walang sayang diba.

1.
for you. yeps, miss na talaga kita, bea's here. ikaw, asan ka?
dumating ka na ha, please please!
goodluck on your exams.

2.
nalilito ako. sino ba to? miss purple?
miss purple, dear. wag kang malungkot dahil andito naman ako.
no too much drama. =]

3.
staying is a choice. why can't you NOT.. go.
I know you can't do something MUCH about it..
parents decision.. but.. i hope you'd go BACK.
it's too sudden..

4.
hey. goodluck there. that's a hard time, yah know.
why not stay close to whom you really want to be close.. sa seksyon.
mahirap ang plastikan dude. hindi mo kasalanan kung close ka sa kanya.
mag cocc ka na rin. hahaha.

5.
ahehehe. ako yun. xD

goodluck!:]

ayokong maging madrama!XD

working day 2.

day2!

yes! day 2 na. =) 3 days to go!

Jollibee everyday! Hamburger kahapon, spaghetti naman ngayon. =)

in fairness, mas mabigat ang work sa library kahapon (773 kilos ba naman).. kasi.. ngayon.. hmm. mas kaunti na ang hinahakot at nagsulat na lang.

nilamig naman ako ngayon sa tapat ng aircon na 18 degrees C! grabeeh.

super kalokohan namin ngayon. nyahaha.

may mga nakakatawang pictures na gagawing collage daw! haha. tapos may kinakanta kaming FRENCH! under the sea --- sulu sear! Tapos.. may mga bagong pangalan, yung posted kanina. Hehehehe.

Nosebleed sa EuroLang!

Au revoir, monsieur? Bounjour. Merci.

Grabe nakakatuwa. =)

kahit na OP ako sa Core, dahil ako lang ang hindi Core dun. Pero okay lang talaga ako. Naku naman. Sige na, pag-iisipan ko na yang Core na yan, kung mag cCOCC nga ako next year. =)

why can't books walk or fly?

"lumilipad kahit walang pakpak."

diba ganun ang mga libro?
pero bakit kailangan pa naming magbuhat ng 773 kilos ng libro??
yung as in puno ang isang jeep ng libro. tipong hihiga ka na sa libro. hahaha.
waaah. nakakapagod talaga. sumakit katawan ko! nakakapagod talaga! nakatulog na ko agad pag uwi.

as in sasabihin mo sa libro:
"bakit ba hindi kayo marunong maglakad?!
lumipad na nga lang kayo papuntang junkshop!
sana maging pera na lang agad kayo."

naging mga mangyan pa kami. mga primitibong tao. simple machines kamo. wahahaha. =))

akala talaga namin yayaman kaming as in. kaso...
1600+ lang?!?!

whaaat.. yun lang yun..?

pero hindi kami nagsisisi sa ginawa naming yun dahil masaya naman kami. kahit na 8 na ko nakarating ng bahay. 7:30 nasa school pa.. :p

kayong tatlong kasama ko.. diba sang-ayon kayo?:]

one phrase blow.

Maliit na pangyayari lang ang ikukuwento ko.

Ngayong araw, medyo baliw ako. Kasi, 4:30 ako natulog. 3 hours lang tulog ko. So ayun, I went to school.. Many things happened.. Tapos ayun, pauwi na. We're walking home, and we saw someone. Then i suddenly said, "Bilisan natin, ayokong makasabay yun." -- That's because.. ayokong asarin sa kanya.. And then he said..

"Kawawa naman yun, iniiwasan mo."

I don't know what's with that phrase pero nung sinabi nya yun.. BOOM. Haha. I became defensive, nakonsyensya at napaisip. Syempre ayoko siya makasabay kasi ayokong maasar, pero hindi ko sya iniiwasan. Hahahaha.

This is very weird, considering that I'm the one writing this. Tell me, what's with that phrase being said by him?

mysterious caller.

nung nasa batangas ako, may tumawag daw sa akin.. kaso...

Hindi ko alam kung sino.

Sino kaya? Kung alam nyo kung sino... Sabihin niyo kung sino.
Kung ikaw yun, sabihin mo lang.

Sino kaya yun at bakit kaya siya tumawag?? Haha. Malay ko kung sino na yun. Haha.
Pano kung importanteng tao pala. Haha.

Basta, kung ikaw man yung tumawag sa akin nung May 15-17 ata..
Sabihin mo na sa akin. Dali.

ang prinsipe at prinsesa.

Marami ang prinsipe at prinsesa ngayong summer. Walang ginagawa. Sinisilbihan at lahat lahat na. Ang kailangan lang nilang gawin ay umupo sa isang tabi at ayun na.. Wala nang kaproble-problema. mag-iinternet na lang at kung ano-ano lang. Pakain kain.. Laro laro at lahat lahat na.

Oo, ganito rin ang buhay ko minsan. Walang pakialam basta ako ay nakahiga't nanonood lamang o nagcocomputer.. Ngunit sa ngayon, hindi ganito ang buhay ko. Ako ay gumagawa gawa dahil walang katulong.. So ayun.. naghuhugas, nag-aayos, at lahat lahat na.

Ang kinaiinisan ko lamang ay... ang kapatid kong ito.. bakit siya ganun. Siya nga ay buhay prinsipe. walang ginagawa.. kaunting utos lamang ay nagagalit na sya. nagrereklamo na. Alam ko marami sa atin ang ganito, at minsan ganito rin naman ako. Pero diba, isipin nyo. Kung kayo ang nasa kalagayan kong kasalukuyang gumagawa at makakakita kayo ng ganito.. Diba magtataka at magrereklamo din kayo na...

"Bakit ikaw onti lang ginagawa, magrereklamo ka? Eh ako nga gumagawa, walang reklamo, ni isa?"

O ayan... Wag magpaka buhay prinsipe at prinsesa.. Kung ganyan ang buhay nyo, edi sige pero wag mareklamo. :]

2-day batangas vacation. sunburned.

SUNBURNED.

part two.. of my 10-day vacation.. this is the remaining 2 days.. heheh. LAIYA, BATANGAS. guess the name of the resort...? Aroma Magic Cream BEach Resort... with ChE DEPT... :]

actually.. hindi kagandahan yung beach kasi ang lapit nung cottages sa dagat. pero enjoy naman,. tsaka edited yung pictures sa taas. o dba. xD ayun. pero enjoy naman. ano nga ba kasi ang nangyari? syempre nagswimming kami. 2 days. dun sa dagat.. clear naman. kaso maraming dikya at biglang lalim.. okay lang.. enjoy. nung una nagswimming kami ng umuulan hahaha. :D
tapos ayun... snorkle kahit mababaw.. ahahaha.

nung gabi edi.. ang ginawa namin ay.. nagbaraha.. at nag sigarilyo ng CANDY.. haha. nagkuwentuhan,.. aba! nahuli pa kami matulog kaysa sa elders! nyagarks! :] tsaka nag marshmallow na inihaw kami. hahahaha!

[CY! ilabas mo na ang pictures!]

the next day.. so umaga na.. nagswimming ulit.. nag picture taking... the official photographer.. CY. :] hahah. tapos nagsnorkling. hahaha. maganda. maraming fishes. pero patay corals... okay lang. hahah. makonsyensya kayo sa pag-ihi sa dagat. XD nyahahaha. :P

and then.. pag-uwi.. so sa bus.. nanood ng 1408.. nakatulog ako.. tapos AUGUST RUSH! ang ganda pala nun! super nakakahyper! yehehe. :]

ayun.. MASAYA. ENJOY. kahit sunburned ako. :]

8-day bicol vacation. :]

This is the whole general.. short.. story of my 8-day Bicol vacation... That's May1-May8..

So, first, rundown of all things.. almost all things that happened.. from day 1 - 8. :]

May 1, 2008.
I arrived there. I saw ate Kling. Yehey. :] I slept and slept because I was tired and then I wrote a blog in a piece of paper.. Camille and I took some silly pictures. Hehe. I talked and spent time with my cousins... We also started watching anime.. hehehe. :]

May 2, 2008.
We went to Legaspi. We went to Ate Queenie's house in Pinarik. We had some girl talk. The handsome men from Jdoramas and koreanovelas! Wahaha. There's a piano there and we also watched Jump In. We went to Gaisano.. a mall. We tried many kinds of shades and took pictures with my cellphone.

Oh La La swimming pool. got the pic somewhere.. but..XD

May 3, 2008.
OOH LA LA! PARADISE! ~ We went to Ooh La La.. A swimming pool in Muladbucad. Haha. There's 2 slides there. We had fun swimming. The water was sooo cold.. Hahaha. I think by this time we finished the anime! And I started watching COFFEE PRINCE again.. but then again there's brownout...

I can't sleep this night. Mama was soo... MAKULIT.. Muntik na ko di makasama sa beach!

Costa Palmera Beach resort. got the pic somewhere. XD

may 4, 2008.
BEACHY PARADISE!! ~ Costa Palmera Resort, Sto. Domingo.
Yehey! I was able to come and join this outing! I was so worried last night that I couldn't join.. Haha. We rented a jeep. The jeep was so FULL!! Wahah. We were so many. There's a SALTWATER pool there... We swam there. Along with almost all my cousins.. (except brothers and ate queenie and kling)... It was so fun.. When we came back... Chang Chang and Li had... reddish skin.. namula sila! Dati pa namang maputi! :] My cousins got sunburned... HAHAHA.

And oh! We ate halohalo! :D

may 5, 2008.
All I remember is... VIDOEKE!! wahahahaha. That's all I remember... I slept and then sang at the videoke in tita Joy's house,.. haha. :]

may 6, 2008.

FIESTA! REUNION! ~ something different about this fiesta.. It isn't about.. FOOD. but.. It's about the reunion. We were reunited! We took pictures of all of us.. Woohoo. It was so fun! But there's something.. It doesn't feel like it's fiesta time. :]

may 7, 2008.
BYE BYE CAMILLE!! ~ bye bye camille and co. :c Wahaha. While you're gone, our cousin Li had a boyfriend.. a so called boyfriend.. Which is my brother... WIM. They're so sweet. I have many stolen shots! Haha! Evidence! and.. hmm.. We went to.. Guinobatan.. sa sentro. Only Joan and me. hehehe. :]

may 8, 2008.
WILDLIFE!!! ~ wildlife.. .. not much really. Haha. It's fun because I'm with my cousins. Haha. And... BYEBYE BICOL~~ PACKING TIME... wooh..

bye.. see you next time, beloved province and cousins. :]